The River: Writing Challenge Day 15

I have so many internal defenses.  I see them, and I have a pretty good start on understanding where they come from.  In my quest to open up, I know I shouldn't and yet I watch myself use them.  Until I stop doing it, I will continue on much the same path ... and yet I watch myself use them. My word for 2012 was resolve - I need to hold on to my resolve to change, so that these walls can come down.