Monday, January 2, 2012
Last day of vacation...
I have been off work now since December 23rd. We didn't go on any big trip or do anything particularly noteworthy, and parenting 24/7 for 11 days in a row isn't any picnic...but I am not at all interested in going back to work. Not. At. All.
As often happens, I find something to think about when I'm feeling like this...lately in the blog world, othertimes in my meditation readings, and sometimes it can even turn up in a TV show or a conversation in passing...today it was from Therese at The Unlost, who wrote here about saving yourself from "shoulditis". It had a lot to do with how we find jobs and/or careers for ourselves and one line that stood out is this one:
Most of us are either (a) Completely lost, confused, and directionless when it comes to what we want to do with our lives, (b) Stuck in a career path we don’t enjoy but feel powerless to leave, or (c) Both of the above.
I will be back to visit The Unlost for the ongoing discussion of this topic, but it got me thinking about where I fall in this spectrum when it comes to my job. Would I like to do something else? Well, sure, I think I would, but at the same time, I may just be thinking "greener pastures" because perhaps the problem is within me and not about my job at all.
Here is what I know:
1. I need to work outside the home.
2. I need to interact with people at work.
3. I need to be self-directed - not because I want to, but because I need to.
4. I am good at my current job, but the inherent political frustrations that come with it, combined with the emotional subject matter, oftentimes suck the life right out of me.
5. I need to have freedom to be myself at work - a buttoned down life is not for me.
6. Lifetime movies really suck (some Christmas nonsense is on TV right now, sorry...)
My current job:
1. Good people to work with, who also like and value me.
2. Decent money
3. I'm good at it
4. Job security
5. I get personal satisfaction from what I do, even in the midst of having the life sucked out of me.