Thursday, February 23, 2012

from the middle

I haven't posted anything in three days.  The only thing I can say about that, to explain, is that I think I am somewhere in the middle of a shift and I can't quite get myself steady enough to collect my wits entirely.  I am experiencing a very weird feeling.  My reactions to various things feel different.  My emotions about various things feel different.  My thoughts are scattered and undecided, sometimes, and clear as crystal and absolutely directed in others. 

What came to mind today was that I am moving from Point A - where I've been - to some other place or at least onto some new path, and I kind of have a foot in each and neither feels 'normal' yet.  It is a feeling like none I've ever felt before.  It doesn't frighten me or give me anxiety ... I'm just kind of waiting, mostly patiently, to see what happens next.  And even that mostly patient feeling is unprecedented for me.

Here I wait.  I think I'll have to tell some stories of the past this weekend, while I wait.  Savoring my mostly patient self...hahahahaha....

3 comments:

  1. If I may:

    "Cloudy
    My thoughts are scattered and they’re cloudy,
    They have no border, no boundaries.
    They echo and they swell
    From Tolstoy to Tinker Bell.
    Down from Berkeley to Carmel.
    Got some pictures in my pocket and a lot of time to kill." Simon & Garfunkel

    This Simon and Garfunkel song is going through my head, since I read your post. It sounds a little unsettling. Think abut it, write what comes out, and go from there.

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  2. Love Simon and Garfunkel, Mark. And Sarah, hope good changes are in store for you :)

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  3. I admire patience soooooo much. Don't always practice it, but sure do admire it.

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